As declared in my last post, I’ve decided to embark on a social experiment of 100% transparency, 100% self-acceptance and 0% shame. Already it feels incredibly difficult.
As much as I hate to admit it, I am an approval whore. I don’t necessarily care whether or not strangers approve of me–it’s the people I love and whose opinions I respect from whom I want acceptance. It’s true I’d hate for something I post here to hurt or offend my loved ones. But, if I dig really deep, I find the hardest part of being 100% transparent is that there’s some small part of me that feels unlovable in my entirety–exactly as I am.
You might not agree with me, but I think most people feel that way too. Otherwise, why do we contruct social personas, personas that we become quite attached to? And isn’t that what corporate advertising plays on–our fears that we’re not okay, that we’re not enough, exactly as we are? Continue reading