After writing my last post, I thought “Oh god. This blog has already become depressing”. But that’s not what I want.
I don’t want my writing to be yet one more platform for people to feel bad about the world they live in. Nor do I want this to become the narcissistic catharsis that so many other blogs become. So, I asked myself: “what do I want to come from this?”
These are the answers that came up:
I want to help people
I want people to feel better about their lives
I want them to feel more connected and less lost, confused, or lonely
I want people to know that it’s okay to be honest, real and open, and that their true selves are completely lovable
I want people to become more self-aware so that they can make the kinds of choices that lead to richer and more joyful lives
I want to subject myself to a social experiment of 100% transparency, 100% self-acceptance and 0% shame, and document the entire thing on this blog.
Whew! All of those statements feel incredibly true, and having put them down has somehow lifted a weight in my body that I hadn’t noticed was there. That very last statement (the one about transparency) scares the bejeesus out of me (literally my arm hairs stood on end when I wrote it) which is a good sign that I absolutely should do it.
Here goes nothin’.